*Tamar Braxton is opening up about her July 16 suicide attempt, claiming she wanted to “end my pain and my life,” after years in the “toxic” reality TV business.
She’s speaking out about her healing process and divulging more details about her downward spiral.
On Thursday, Braxton, 43, revealed in a lengthy statement on Instagram that she attempted suicide after suffering “pain” for the past 11 years while working as a reality TV star.
“Thank you to each and every individual who has prayed for me, thought of me, sent me their love and has showered me with their support. In this present moment, it is my only responsibility to be real with myself and to be real with the ones who truly love me and care for my healing. I have without fail, shared with you my brightest days, and I know that sharing with you what has been my darkest will be the light for any man or woman who is feeling the same defeat I felt just only a week ago,” she wrote.
You can read her full IG message via the embed below.
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First and foremost, Thank you.
Thank you to each and every individual who has prayed for me, thought of me, sent me their love and has showered me with their support. In this present moment, it is my only responsibility to be real with myself and to be real with the ones who… pic.twitter.com/FB13IgOmHh
— TAMAR “SLAVE” BRAXTON (@TamarBraxtonHer) July 30, 2020
“Every one of us has a desire, whether small or big, to make it out of where we come from to an ideal future place that includes, freedom to be who we choose, security for our children and families, and fortune to share with the ones we love. We believe these things can co-exist with just being happy. I believed that, that as a black woman, as an artist, an influence, a personality I could shape my world, and with whom I believed to be my partners, they could help me share my world,” Braxton continued her IG message.
Braxton went on to say that “over the past 11 years there were promises made to protect and portray my story, with the authenticity and honesty I gave.”
The singer claimed she was “betrayed, taken advantage of, overworked, and underpaid,” prompting her to write “a letter over 2 months ago asking to be freed from what I believed was excessive and unfair. I explained in personal detail the demise I was experiencing.”
Braxton said that her cry for help was ignored.
“It was my spirit, and my soul that was tainted the most. There are a few things I count on most to be, a good mother, a good daughter, a good partner, a good sister, and a good person,” Braxton said.
“Who I was, begun to mean little to nothing, because it would only be how I was portrayed on television that would matter. It was witnessing the slow death of the woman I became, that discouraged my will to fight,” Braxton wrote.
“The pain that I have experienced over the past 11 years has slowly ate away at my spirit and my mental,” she continued.
WE tv has delayed the premiere of Tamar’s new show until September as she focuses on healing. However, sources say she does not want it to air at all.